Desires

Discussing recently the meaning of 'cognitive dissonance', and it was suggested that it meant doing something even though you know you should do something else, I wasn't quite sure, but Wikipedia agrees.

My long term goals of spending less on drugs and fast food, are being forgotten 'in the moment' and I'm doing everything I shouldn't. Grrrr!!!

dumped

I think she thought I was cheating on her, I gave her reason to think that, did nothing I was ashamed of, but made suggestions and requests of a close friend (which were declined) that I would not have made with the girlfriend in mind.

the previous one dumped me cause I wanted other women, in all honesty, I wanted her and my best friend. I know my best friend cant be caged, and I wouldn't probably enjoy her half as much if she were (not that I've 'had' her), but wanted regular cuddles and someone into only me at the same time. I think my 'sex drive' is in overdrive, I'm worried its because i'm 'revving the engine'.

moving forward, my goals are; getting better at my slacklining and getting into shape. I'd like a regular girlfriend, but I'm thinking I'm tired of chasing for the minute. We'll see.

lol, so the previous paragraph above was written with a five minute pause in the middle, '... I'd like a regular'.. I read when my focus returned... 'girlfriend' was my response, but 'meditation' was going to be the original topic. Freudian or whatnot I suppose.

7 minutes a day is my target, 25 minutes twice a day is the recommended practice.

love,
noel

Change in the winds...

...because change is everywhere. So I've lost my enthusiasm for spiritual autolysis, which lasted for about as long as it took to listen to the audiobooks. I won't say I don't think it's good advice, but I don't know that I'm ready for drastic steps just yet, or maybe the process doesn't work the same in everyone.

I'd like to make more regular posts on here, here's hoping.

love,
Noel